stalker

she becomes a stalker recently.
since you enter this campus.

finally she stalk get you.
but you're sooo stingy in sharing your info.
Zzz

frens asked her & kept on advising her to give up,
is not destined for her.

yet, her eyes keep on looking and searching for you during schooling day.
wth is she doing.
she thought of seeing you in a day then that day would be her perfect day
wth wth...

-____-

in fact, they are not possible at all.

she knows that it is the time to give up on you since she first met you.
she is sick of this useless stuffs.

sometimes, she loves, she enjoys FREEDOM.
her promise: back to realistic and keep moving in her life :)

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happy 20th :)

the day has come...
even though i wish it not to.
it still has come to me TODAY.
but i wanna welcome it with my big hand! :)

anyway, this is my very 1st no. "2" in my lifetime.
i have reached my 20th unconsciously.
I am happy with it.

happy 20th birthday to me :)

no matter is wish by text, by FB's wall post/inbox messages/by calls.

anyway, i have received all the wishes from you all.
& yeah, thx for those presents!


**ESPECIALLY received call & texts from the love!yee..
you're so damn sweet, OYJ! & loves!**

-

I'm GLAD u did it.
& LUCKILY u did it.
thanks.*sincerely***

i know u did it not because of scare.
i know you have matured and knew that someone have to tolerate in the first place.
right?

no matter how, we still have a long way to go..
is more or less 4 years, we STILL have 4 YEARS to go.
anyhow, we STILL have to face each other in those years..

this kind of feeling is better for us Just to keep in our heart.
who knows if we keep it deep in our heart.
it'll just be fine.

tolerance helps us to go through all these unhappy stuffs.
we are now adults,
childish actions/thinking should be erased from now on, in our life :))

anyway, thanks, anonymous  :)))
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人生

看完"On call 36小时" 感想莫过于觉得说
呼吸真的很无常
人生也一样
无常
主题曲的歌词也一样感伤

独自一个人看
泪猛飚
然后自己再
猛擦泪
飚完以后会觉得自己很好笑.

其实
人生就是这样.

当残忍的疾病发生在自己身上的时候
做什么都禰补不了
欣然接受不知道需要多少的勇气
天啊...
人又那么脆弱.
有谁敢担保下一秒自己会发生什么事.

所以要珍惜呼吸的每一秒
然后活在当下.!

突然想念他们
公公婆婆外公外婆


*很伤心酱
只是感触良多la*
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/I'm Back!!!/

i couldn't describe my feeling of stepped into my room yesterday,
joyfulness surrounded me to the MAX!
& yeah!! hooray to it!!
i'm done with my BIG camping
proud of that :)))
as we were the 1st group out of other courses, teehee
we are now the one who went through all those hardship before them all :pp

wholelot of us - Serial 2, Group 1 of programme BIG :))

my worries before going to this camp seemed to disappear after i have done those activities.
i'm so happy that i was able to do it.
especially for rafting, activity that i scared the most.
with the group members' moral support as well as their physical support for me,
i was able to do back-jump-in-water-action.
thanks guys!
somehow, i pray that i will not phobia with water anymore.

the only thing that i gained the most was...
BRUISES!
i felt like bruises were anywhere on my body.
caused of jungle trekking :((
i thought i must be tough enough and steady enough to climb up the steep-like-hell hill.
i was able to climb, everyone was able to climb also.
the only matter for me was the process of climbing & felling in it.
-- the reason for bruises on my leg & hand.
I'M SICK OF IT NOW!


**sorry if i was too quiet in the group,
sometimes, i just felt i didn't belong to the group.
sometimes, i just felt hard to speak out & chose to be quiet.
i'm truly sorry, guys!**

***********
i thought u will do something..
who cares just anything..
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/camp/

BIG (Bina Insan Guru) camping is tomorrow.
4 days 3 nights.

is nothing,
just a 4 days 3 nights camp,
just can't bath properly,
just can't have proper meal.
just can't drink much water than i consume daily & this just simply able
to make me dehydration ,
just will get sunburn all the way.
& just getting darker & darker in my life time.
is nothing, 
somehow, just kill me. why don't?

I'm scare of water!
jungle trekking, hiking, napping, anything that is on the land is OK for me,
but NOT rafting, for sure.
NOT RAFTING/Kayaking.
NOT activity.on/in the water/sea.


what to do what to do.

It begins tomorrow.
I...
suan le ba.
ren sheng bu guo ru chi.

today woke up much more earlier than yest.
to attend camping's meeting.
& preparing for out tent.
*i'm happy working with her, Syuhada :))*

somehow, God, please bless me for those days.
anyway, i hope to have a happy & valuable camping :)))
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23/3/2012

i woke up..eerr..can be counted early today :)))
& getting...

ready to go for my 2nd injection.

still bit painful until now.
but it doesn't matter,
coz i know that is all for my health after all :))
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i dreamt of someone yesterday night :(
someone that i should not have dream of.
someone that i do not miss.& had bad memory with.
felt so tired when i woke up.

*people said when you dream of someone = that person is missing you*
but i don't think it's true.
anyway, i know that the person is living in bliss.
that's enough :)
**********
yesterday night,i wonder it's that you?
if yes,
i'm disappointed at you.
i believe in your words
yet, your actions has betrayed you.

i'm such a joke.
taht have put so high expectations in you.
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